That Day When It Rained…

[Written: 25 May 2002, Picked from the diary entries: Excuse the lack of poetry skill exhibited, Part of the early stint at writing! ]

Suddenly the black nimbus showed its agony in a flash of lightning.
The day otherwise shunned by all,
The passionate wind now blew...

I knew what this meant, for she was with me
I reclined pensive, wondering if God was willing to satiate me.

A look into her perspicuous eyes told me
That heaven had descended.
The trees overjoyed shed flowers on the wet ground beneath.

A moment of pre-eminence,
But counted on fortuitous circumstances.
Respite had at last reached me for sometime now…
In the form of a Goddess who had exterminated all my sorrows.

Though Alas! Can I be sure it’s the end of my pathetic days?
As I have for long known God’s ruthless ways…

In spite of the beautiful affinity
Why exists such dubious extremity?

So near… yet so far,
We walked along…
On that rainy evening,
When the paramount sun had gone…

-Jesh 
25 May 2002 

The Splendid Creation

[Written: 1999-2000, Picked from the diary entries: The first poem penned by me on my pristine feeling of love. Excuse the lack of poetry skill exhibited! ]

Is she an angel or a princess?

Who pierced right through my senses!


I wish she were describable.

But frankly enough she is unexplainable!

Now, has the lord been partial?

While putting in her all the essentials.

That would ultimately crown her the undisputed princess.

It may be sooner or later, that men would start singing her praises!


Is she an angel or a princess?!

When her hair blew with the breeze,

It was like the parakeet that danced in ease.Brighter than anything her eyes shone.

Precisely, where had the paramount sun gone?

Pensive I have always been, pondering what made her so pre-eminent.

Perspiring I have always concluded, she is the most reactive element!

Oh! Is she an angel or a princess?

Who pierced right through my senses!




Her eyebrows like the majestic coastal trees,

More splendid than anything I had ever seen.

Though her semblance is extremely fascinating,

It’s the traditional looks that make her so ravishing.

Am I not lucky to be able to witness such an incredible scenario?!

That infatuated many and turned me into her Romeo!

Someday the Splendid creation will be mine…

And then I will have the crown and also the dime!!!

-Jesh

1999-2000

From the diary entries of 2002 - Glimpse

[Written : 2002 , From the diary entries ]




Life I guess needs nothing more than an occasional glimpse of the person you love more than you love yourself.

Truly I had felt years having passed by before I could get that ultimate vision, for I had indeed gone through the penance for it. I know not what lies ahead. I don’t understand why and how; all I know is my devotion is true for the goddess who made my life worth living, of course not without tenebrous isolations.



I am alive.
Living with the power that each glimpse gave me. I believe two hearts that beat together are not severable…

Tagore once wrote, “When with night the child of want lies down, dirty and hungry, in his squalid home, and hears of prince and princess and fabled gold, his mind springs free from her bonds of poverty and misery, and walks in fresh beauty and glowing raiment, strong beyond all fear of hinderance, through the fairy realm where all is possible.’’

I live in such a world, transformed, as I move in spirit amid my songs, fearless, ever so feeling the presence of the goddess whom I love so much.

Because all I ever wanted is to discover the real meaning of life by looking into those eyes…
-Jesh
2002

From the diary entries of 2003 – Love

[ Written 2003 - From the diary entries ]



Leo Tolstoy once wrote, “All, everything that I understand, I understand only because I love.”

I shall with my most conscientious frame of mind agree to this statement. Love: the ever so pure, so infinite, so profound, so powerful and yet the most misinterpreted.

Today life is so labefactioned; every aspect of reality, of truth, is misinterpreted, often resulting in ignorance. Love is the essence of life.

Man is no more but a slave of his senses, his carnal desires, that to the ordinary, love is no more than a sex related emotion that satisfies every lust.

So strong is true love that it takes nothing more for man to give up his futile life and understand its true essence and thus make it sublime. To me, a person who can love another can face all odds, can live selfless, and can die for an other’s sake. Love encompasses every other human feeling hence.









When you can love a person, find all happiness within him, wish for every happiness of his/hers, you become selfless. It makes you then know the true essence of life and the loved ones therein. And that’s what it takes to love mankind on a universal scale. Love can help you forgive and forget: the two factors that are so essential in today’s world.

I have done just one good thing in my life, to have fallen in love, selflessly.

Love has taught me the way to happiness. I know I have been far from successful in getting back the love I seek but I have grown so strong I can live all my life without ever making her mine, never finding love even in her words; still my love shall never die.

As the hymn says:

Only he
Who is smitten with the arrows of love,
Knows its power.


Yes, I too wish for a life with her, dream about things which we could do together, for I too am human, but my wisdom gives me the courage to withstand any other circumstance otherwise. So powerful is love…

Hence I walk along, grown and strong, in spirit amid my songs, and believe me, I find her every step, every moment, walking beside me; what else could I ask for? Physical reality may expound otherwise, but then my heart beats hard, exclaiming that she is mine…

God! Thank you for getting me smitten with the arrows of love! Thank you for thy sublime wisdom.

-Jesh

2003