From the diary entries of 2003 – Love

[ Written 2003 - From the diary entries ]



Leo Tolstoy once wrote, “All, everything that I understand, I understand only because I love.”

I shall with my most conscientious frame of mind agree to this statement. Love: the ever so pure, so infinite, so profound, so powerful and yet the most misinterpreted.

Today life is so labefactioned; every aspect of reality, of truth, is misinterpreted, often resulting in ignorance. Love is the essence of life.

Man is no more but a slave of his senses, his carnal desires, that to the ordinary, love is no more than a sex related emotion that satisfies every lust.

So strong is true love that it takes nothing more for man to give up his futile life and understand its true essence and thus make it sublime. To me, a person who can love another can face all odds, can live selfless, and can die for an other’s sake. Love encompasses every other human feeling hence.









When you can love a person, find all happiness within him, wish for every happiness of his/hers, you become selfless. It makes you then know the true essence of life and the loved ones therein. And that’s what it takes to love mankind on a universal scale. Love can help you forgive and forget: the two factors that are so essential in today’s world.

I have done just one good thing in my life, to have fallen in love, selflessly.

Love has taught me the way to happiness. I know I have been far from successful in getting back the love I seek but I have grown so strong I can live all my life without ever making her mine, never finding love even in her words; still my love shall never die.

As the hymn says:

Only he
Who is smitten with the arrows of love,
Knows its power.


Yes, I too wish for a life with her, dream about things which we could do together, for I too am human, but my wisdom gives me the courage to withstand any other circumstance otherwise. So powerful is love…

Hence I walk along, grown and strong, in spirit amid my songs, and believe me, I find her every step, every moment, walking beside me; what else could I ask for? Physical reality may expound otherwise, but then my heart beats hard, exclaiming that she is mine…

God! Thank you for getting me smitten with the arrows of love! Thank you for thy sublime wisdom.

-Jesh

2003